So I found out a few months ago that wanting to ‘not exist’ or wishing you could ‘just sleep forever’ is also considered suicidal (specifically suicidal idealization). It shocked me cause I used to think that way when I was younger but had previously thought that being suicidal meant explicitly wanting to die.. but it actually involves wanting to not live too.
I think its an important thing to note cause it might allow someone to realize the severity of their condition earlier.
This was the funniest thing to me. Because I was talking to a counselor, and they were like “Are you suicidal?”
“No not really. But sometimes I don’t want to exist though”
“You do know that’s suicidal ideation?”
“…what?”
I wish I kind of knew before. Like honestly, we know so little about mental health.
Yup. I have that.
Mhmm. So much is unknown about how to be healthy or what is healthy thinking because we don’t. Even know what is unhealthy to start with.
It honestly makes me wonder what a therapist would make of my “It’s not that I want to die or even don’t want to be here. I’d just like to be able to stop the world, get off for a week, tidy everything, sleep a lot and then come back.”
i am a japanese person here to confirm that yes she is trans if you watch the episode and know everything being said there is literally no question that she is trans. the fact that she is trans is also relevant to the plot/her death. any “trans jokes” made in the episode only further emphasized how “Masao” was not a fitting name for her at all, and how she truly is Lily, always will be, and tbh, always has been. there’s no “liberty with the subtitles” japan has an LGBTQ community and I won’t stand for these ignorant westerners erasing that.
People going around saying that Crunchyroll made up the fact she was trans to push an agenda just further justifies my thinking that the anime community is shit.
